Emotions

Since my daughter was born I realize that she was a sort of "time machine" for my emotions.. I was afraid I wouldn' t be a good mother, of not being able to love her enough..and so on..mind you, before getting pregnant I didn't feel anything looking at a baby, while I would melt in presence of a puppy...

Then, after she was born, I discover I can love her(so much!I can't believe now how could I doubt it!), and be (I hope so, certainly I try very hard!) a good mother, and even, now when I see a baby, I feel tenderness...

So I start to think about this change...and realize my fears were a "blockage" I built as a projection of my mum's fears and of something that happened while I was a baby. And i'm sure of this, because of things that happened back then...

Then few days ago, while I was at the library with my daughter I found this book. It's written by Isabelle Filliozat and (I couldn't find the title in english)talk about children (and parents) emotions!

Exactly what I had been "discovered" about myself..and I think that is a book that everybody should read. It's one of those books that can help you to discover certain reaction that sometimes we cannot understand about ourself and just let pass by....a book that can help heal our soul!